In 1994, as I watched Susan Smith — who also ruthlessly murdered her own children and then blamed it on some mysterious, non-existent, black marauder — cry for the cameras and beg that her missing pre-school aged sons be returned to her…I was holding my own beautiful, tiny, premature infant son in my arms and blissfully nursing him as I watched NBC Nightly News. As cameras flashed and people gasped, I turned to my then-husband and, with a face and voice as bland and flat as Kevin Spacey in ANY AND EVERY FUCKING PART HE HAS EVER PLAYED, simply said, “SHE’S LYING.”

And so it was when I heard about this EVIL MOTHERFUCKER’S CLAIMS that two black teenagers just came up, demanded money, and then, as she watched, shot her baby in the face in his stroller, killing him. I cannot tell you how I knew, but I knew: SHE, TOO, WAS LYING.

The true horror and injustice of this story is not just that she murdered her own child, nor just that she blamed that murder on these two young black men. No, the true horror is that the world was, sight unseen, SO FUCKING READY AND EAGER TO BELIEVE IT. SO ready and eager to destroy the lives of these two young men and their families…because, as young black men in our culture, their own lives aren’t worth much to begin with. I cannot even imagine what their own mothers must be going through.



About muffybolding

Muffy Bolding is a mother/writer/actor/knitter/feminist/withered debutante who likes the smell of asparagus pee, and remains obsessed with the bathroom hygiene of her three children -- despite the fact that they are 23, 19, and 16. She is blissfully married to a cute Jewish boy who looks like Willie Wonka, but remains tragically in love with the dead poet, Ted Hughes. She has the mouth of a Teamster, and her patron saint is Rocco (pestilence relief.) Ms. Bolding lives in Southern California, where she enjoys typing words, making movies, and plucking the rings from the fingers of the dead. She was the co-creator and Editor-in-Chief of the award winning satire zine, Fresno Lampoon, and in between writing screenplays, carnival barking, and savagely threatening her trio of darling larvae with a wooden spoon, she currently publishes the zine, "Withered Debutante." More of her work can also be found in the anthology, "Mamaphonic: Balancing Motherhood and Other Creative Acts", the compilation zine, "Mamaphiles III: Coming Home", as well as in The Cortland Review and hipmama.com. She is currently writing and producing for film and television, and working on a book of essays entitled, "Inside A Chinese Dragon." She has slept around, but not nearly as much as she would have liked.
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