One of the most blissful and monumental memories of my childhood is sitting next to my father, Tom, in the dark of Strasenburgh Planetarium in Rochester, New York — gazing up at the stars and out into the infinite universe, my small hand tightly holding the hand of the man I loved most in that universe…and who loved me in return with equal, singular devotion. Along with the very first time I held each of my children on the day of their birth — this memory is my “Happy Place.” It is where I go in my head when I need to feel safe and enveloped in utter, buttery love.
Saturday night, I made my way to yet another planetarium, to once again gaze up at the distant stars — only this time, I had my darling and adored husband, Gregory, on one side of me, and my darling and adored gusband, Jackie Beat, on the other. As I held their hands, looking up into infinity, I thought of my Daddy in New York, and I felt at one with everything…completely filled with amazement and boundless gratitude at my great fortune to live a life filled with such loving, supportive, brilliant, fascinating men.
I surely must have been born under a lucky star.
Muffy Bolding is a mother/writer/actor/knitter/feminist/withered debutante who likes the smell of asparagus pee, and remains obsessed with the bathroom hygiene of her three children -- despite the fact that they are 23, 19, and 16. She is blissfully married to a cute Jewish boy who looks like Willie Wonka, but remains tragically in love with the dead poet, Ted Hughes. She has the mouth of a Teamster, and her patron saint is Rocco (pestilence relief.) Ms. Bolding lives in Southern California, where she enjoys typing words, making movies, and plucking the rings from the fingers of the dead. She was the co-creator and Editor-in-Chief of the award winning satire zine, Fresno Lampoon, and in between writing screenplays, carnival barking, and savagely threatening her trio of darling larvae with a wooden spoon, she currently publishes the zine, "Withered Debutante." More of her work can also be found in the anthology, "Mamaphonic: Balancing Motherhood and Other Creative Acts", the compilation zine, "Mamaphiles III: Coming Home", as well as in The Cortland Review and hipmama.com. She is currently writing and producing for film and television, and working on a book of essays entitled, "Inside A Chinese Dragon." She has slept around, but not nearly as much as she would have liked.
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